Saturday, August 29, 2009

BABY KNOX ARRIVES!

I had my regular Dr appt on Tuesday at 3pm. I had begun to have steady contractions around 12, so i took Brennan to Mother's Day out and called Ben to go with me to the doctor, but still recognized  it could be nothing so i would just wait and see. Then right before time to leave, I thought- I really think this is it..lets pack the car just in case.
I had some mean contractions waiting in the doctor's office and had the guts to turn off the tv that was blarring in the waiting area. Ben was like uh..should we be here or the hospital? The doctor came in and checked me and was like "whoa-you are at 5 cm-we need to get you to the hospital and get your epideral. I will be there in a few minutes to check you and break your water, then this baby is gonna be here"
Uh..i cannot, i mean cannot explain to you the difference in this time and last. PRAISE GOD, PRAISE GOD, AND ONE MORE THANK YOU JESUS FOR ALL THINGS GOOD!!!!!!
I got to the hospital and checked in the room. I answered all the questions and the anesthesiologist came in and explained the epideral facts..you could die, be paralyzed etc....i got a little freaked out b/c at the point in which i got the epideral last time i heard nothing but my own screams of writhing pain..and didn't care, felt like i was dying anyway.
She had an emergency c-section she was scurried off to and my doc came by to see how i was. She did not check me b/c she said it could induce me further and she didn't want to do that until i had some meds.
Then they put that epideral in and i immediately stopped feeling the contractions which i would say were at about 1/4 the pain i was in with Brennan. So i was like man this is different! After the epideral my doctor came in and broke my water and said i will be back in 45 minutes, my 15 year old doesn't think he knows how to cook himself a meal.
I began to feel my contractions about an hour later and Ben said that i should tell the nurse, so i did and she checked me and said-put your legs together, we've got to get the doctor here, the baby is right there.
In moments Dr. hunter arrived and said to start pushing. I pushed 3 sets of 3 and he was here! It was amazing and unbelieavable and beautiful. I was able to appreciate the beauty of his little life happening -coming into this world. I kept thanking God for being to gracious to me through this birth!! 
I will update soon with how Brennan is adjusting-please pray about that for us. My mom is here until Monday and Ben's mom will be staying Tuesday and Wednesday. 
Thank you to everyone for all your prayers and support(and meals!!!)
To God be the Glory for all these great things!!!!!
For pictures visit Ben's photography blog

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Satisfaction

I have really been encouraged by the words to Lauren's songs lately. I pulled this cd out form college days and today i want to share the words to "Satisfaction"

I found out I needed you just to get up out of bed each morning.
To get unwound from the cozy sheets and place my feet upon the floor-
To put one foot in front of the other and to make it through another day.
 YOUR MERCY IS NEW EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE.
AND EACH DAY THE SUN COMES POURING THROUGH MY WINDOW
PROVIDED BY YOUR GRACE.
I found out I needed you to satisfy my hunger
Instead of eating candy out of the hands of this world,
and what I found out about morning coffee is that it gets me going
But only for a little while YET
YOUR MERCY IS NEW EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE.
AND EACH DAY THE SUN COMES POURING THROUGH MY WINDOW
PROVIDED BY YOUR GRACE.

This goes along with Lamentations 3. I am so glad that HIS mercy and energy and love are new every day aren't you? And thankful for His GRACE!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Update # Bizillion

Hey everyone! Well, I had not progressed when I went yesterday. Still a one. So we are waiting until next week. My doctor is going camping in Helen GA this weekend and leaves Friday night and returns Sunday around 2. So she said hopefully he will come before she leaves or after she gets back!
Otherwise, I have an appointment for next Tuesday if he has not come she will either stretch me or strip my membranes which will most likely send me into labor within a matter of hours or at least a day or so. So that means by next Thursday he will be here! HURRAY! 
I supported her decision not to "force" an induction when I was only at one cm. She said she could go ahead and do it, but she feels it would be better to let my body do the work on its own. I agree! So the waiting continues. My "spirits" are up and down. Sometimes I am anxious and want to do all the natural inducers..sometimes I am happy to have another day to rest! HA..anyway. God is faithfully encouraging me in His Word and giving me mercy and peace each moment! Thanks for praying!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Baby Knox

Here are the latest ultrasound pictures. I think if you click on them you can see them larger. If you notice, in the first one he is smiling, the second (going left to right) is the one where he is sticking out his tongue, the third is my favorite, with his little hand up by that SWEET little face. The 4th is  a side shot showing his back and head are in position. And the last one he is sleeping, its kind of a profile of his face.
So I go to the doctor at 2:30. I will update you tomorrow or late tonight if i get a chance. I got a text from my doctor yesterday saying that she was going camping with her husband this weekend (Saturday/Sunday) so if i had not progressed much today when she checked we will wait until next week to induce, if i haven't had him on my own. She doesn't want to force things before he is ready (AND I COULDN'T AGREE MORE!)
Last night i sat down to read and it was so good..Do you know what i read?? Isaiah 55! Do you remember the part that says-"MY ways are not YOUR ways, MY ways, MY thoughts are higher" declares the Lord! So in all of this His ways are better. Which reminded me of a song and i want to share the words. Its by Lauren McCuistion from Memphis TN:
"God You know my heart. I've laid it down before You.
Lord, You know my deep desires, how I only want to honor You.
and I know that You've got the desire of my heart and You've got it set apart
YOU KNOW THE BETTER THING, & I'VE SIMPLY GOTTA TRUST
THAT IF YOU CHOOSE NOT TO GIVE ME WHAT I WANT-
YOU'LL GIVE ME SOMETHING BETTER
BETTER IS YOUR PLAN FOR ME
BETTER IS YOUR PERFECT TIMING
BETTER IT IS WHEN I LOOK THROUGH YOUR EYES"

May you be encouraged also by these words-whatever it is that you are trusting God for right now. And read Isaiah 55. Its so good! I am encouraged and I pray that for you today, wherever you are. Thank you for all your prayer, support and encouragement!

Monday, August 17, 2009

update..

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT!!! What comfort, just to hear from others.
Well Saturday Ben, Brennan, Amy (Ben's sis) and our nephews went on a little trail through the woods at Travis and Amy's. We got halfway through and the boys were irritable, so Ben went and got a golf cart to take us the rest of the way down the trail.
We thought between the mini-hike, a bumpy golf cart ride and some other home 'remedies' might speed things up. 
I woke up yesterday morning and as I was getting ready for church water came out. Not a HUGE gush, but enough for me to know it wasn't pee. I got off the toilet and it happened again..twice. Then on the way to church (we drive 40 minutes) the contractions began. They weren't painful and were abut 10 minutes apart. I thought to myself, well with Brennan contractions started at 8:30am and I didn't have him til 11:30pm so why not go on with things as normal? At church they stopped for a while then picked back up at 5 minutes apart. They stopped for a bit on the way home and later in the afternoon got 2 minutes apart. (I'm thinking--yea!~!we're about to have this baby!) Then they would stop and I would go like 20 minutes to an hour in between. All our stuff was ready in case it happened in the night. 
I awoke with some pretty strong contractions in the night, but nothing consistent. And today NOTHING! Went for about a 2 mile walk with Brennan and just got in. Feeling good. I am just going to thank God that I do feel so good. Thank Him for a healthy, active little baby and trust that He knows when this baby will be here and surrender to His plan for his birth.  
I am beginning to be more open to the induction story and will pray that God gives absolute peace and clarity on Wednesday when I have to make the decision!
THANKS AGAIN FOR ALL YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS!

Friday, August 14, 2009

okay..

Normally I would not post twice in one week..but I am really wondering about this inducing thing.  I was talking today to a friend and she made a very good point that if Brennan was 8.2 at 39 weeks, then what will baby #2 be at 40? Would I be able to deliver him or would they have to do a c-section..should I go ahead and schedule the induction? Oh dear Father-direct my steps!  I know everyone gets nervous, and I am not feeling anything different in case you are like my mom thinking I am "close" I feel GREAT! I could run a lap or two around the neighborhood (maybe i should)! I have cleaned my house top to bottom, have about 2 weeks worth of meals in the fridge and don't know what else to do..
Just wondering your thoughts..

Thursday, August 13, 2009

The update we've all been waiting for..

So my doctor checked yesterday and I had dialated one centimeter. She said that if I had not gone into labor on my own that by my appointment next week we would see if I had progressed a good bit further. 
If so she said that we might want to go ahead and induce on Thursday of next week before he got much bigger. (since Brennan was delivered at week 39 and weighed 8.2) Next week is week 39 and she doesn't want me tearing really bad again (b/c of a big baby) or to have another unpleasant delivery. 
She said that my cervix is "mushy"..meaning that it will dialate quickly and easily. She said it starts off hard like the tip of your nose and softens like a 'ripe' fruit...lovely imagery! Anyway.. that's the deal..
I don't really know how i feel about inducing. Many of my friends have gone through the expereince of being induced at like a 3 and then they eventually break the water (causing pain and therefore an early epideral) if you don't progress quick enough . If you have gone "too" long with your water broken and are not delivering then they start talking c-section...This has been the expereince of many of my girl friends..so i am HIGHLY apprehensive and pray that my body does its thing..Either b/t now and next Wednesday when i go back or that next week if i haven't progressed much that we wait another week and trust he won't get "too big"..So prayers dear friends..God knows when he will come! 
Any thoughts or positive stories of induction are welcome!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

update


Going to the Doctor again tomorrow..no changes. Feeling great! Everyone said that they felt bad for me to be pregnant in the heat of this summer, but it has been a surprisingly, delightful mild summer.
I believe they will check for dialation tomorrow since I am 38 weeks. My doctor said last time i was there that she doesn't think it will happen before the 17th..So we will see. 
I delivered at 39 with Brennan.  I am not feeling like its going to happen today or tomorrow, I have even had a release of the constant pressure I had been experiencing, which some say is a sure sign we are getting super close..I don't remember feeling this great at the end with Brennan, but every pregnancy is different.
I have had a weird locking-like muscle feeling in my..um..butt..Its like it goes numb on one side and it hurts to take a step..maybe he like moves to where he is on a nerve or something..I'm not worried, its just kind of funny I have a dead-leg when that happens. Anyone else had anything like this?
I'll let everyone know if  find out anything exciting or newsworthy tomorrow! For now enjoy these pictures of my sweet little helper. He's gonna do great when the new baby comes!

ooo that's heavy! He says! The Dust buster..what would i do without it?
Check out that hard work look on his face!
He went all over the house with the Swiffer! Thanks Little man!
Does loading yourself count as helping??


gotta love this face:

Monday, August 3, 2009

NEW BABY UPDATE

I go to the doctor again tomorrow, so I don't really know why I am updating today..However, lots of you have called or emailed to check on me..so, what I learned last time was that the fluid levels were fine. My AF level when they were concerned was 9.6. Around delivery it shoud be around 10 or higher for safety. That is why they were concerned. It was 14 this past time and everything looked great. My BP and weight have been wonderful throughout the pregnancy and I am so thankful! Praise God, Giver of all Good!
The ultrasound tech is so kind and so is my doctor. The tech clicked on the 4D and let me see his little face..she printed out the pictures. I'm not sure if I could scan them in to share, but they are so precious! It was good of God to allow for me to see little Benjamin's face with his lips and tiny nose and get this..his tongue sticking out on one of them! Maybe he should go by Knox. (For those of you wondering, we have been struggling with Benjamin's middle name and if he should go by it-or Benjamin, b/c of having 2 Bens..I kept telling Ben that when I picture a kid named Knox that I see him with his hat on backwards kicking people in the shins..) HAHA!! So when he stuck out his tongue at us in the ultrasound I was like "Knox it is!"  He has been a lot more mobile in the womb and I am wondering if he is going to be a lot more 'high energy' than Brennan. If so, I will need your prayers. And we are also praying that Brennan will adjust well to having this little bundle around! Thank you all for praying and I can tell the time is getting close!

Nesting

This morning i found myself going nuts. I swept and mopped the entire house (a mopping Monday ritual). But there was something weird. I had to change the water out more than usual and I move ALL the furniture around to mop under it. Then, I commenced to Clorox-clean up my entire kitchen cabinets, doors, handles, the fridge, oven...and it was like i HAD to. It was compulsive...then it hit me-I'M NESTING..its getting close..last week i actually ironed Ben's shorts..for fun! I had 'done' everything i knew to do. I found this article in Parenting Weekly and found it timely, appropriate and comforting! At least I didn't go as overboard as some of these nesting women..

~The nesting urge can also be seen as a sign of the onset of labor when it occurs close to 40 weeks of pregnancy. Nesting brings about some unique and seemingly irrational behaviors in pregnant women and all of them experience it differently. Women have reported throwing away perfectly good sheets and towels because they felt the strong need to have "brand new, clean" sheets and towels in their home. They have also reported doing things like taking apart the knobs on kitchen cupboards, just so they could disinfect the screws attached to the knobs. Women have discussed taking on cleaning their entire house, armed with a toothbrush. There seems to be no end to the lengths a nesting mother will go to prepare for her upcoming arrival. This unusual burst of energy is responsible for women ironing anything in the house that couldn't out run them. Being preoccupied with ant killing, squishing them one at a time for weeks on end. Packing and unpacking the labor bag 50 times. Cleaning the kitchen cupboards and organizing everything by size to the point that you make sure the silverware patterns match when it's stacked in the cutlery drawer. Sorting the baby's clothes over and over again is a favorite theme. Taking them out of the drawers and re-folding them, putting them away and doing it over and over again. Nesting will provide interesting stories for years to come. Nesting can be one of the more humorous aspects of pregnancy. One that you and your partner are sure to laugh about in the years to come. No one can pull you out of it no matter how silly your behavior may seem. It simply becomes something that you must do!