Sunday, January 10, 2010

Sweat Pants & Sesame Street

SO..Big news for our family. I was offered a job.
Yes, a 'perfect' one. Less than a mile from our house, (actually on the same road that we live on). My former partner teacher is now principal at this school and would be working with a very enthusiastic former colleague. It would be only for THREE months (March through May) no strings attached. We are talking over $5000 and with unexpected doctor's bills form Knox's birth it could really help.
Ben and I spent all week praying, talking to those who could guide us through thoughts and questions as to if this would truly be a good decision. We talked A LOT and crunched numbers and prayed some more. I will not take you through every bit of our many conversations, but long story short we feel that God could get more glory through me continuing to stay at home.
NO amount of money can pay for time. Time spent showing unconditional, continuous love to Baby Knox by nursing and setting his schedule. Time spent carefully disciplining Big Brennan, learning how to communicate best with him and determining his strengths and weaknesses.
Time spent caring for our home and planning menus..time spent in sweatpants watching Elmo for the 100th time.
When i called this most excellent of principals that i have always had much respect and care for to tell her my decision listen to here response- The position you have chosen is better than the position i offered. I remember those days. When i was at the stage you are -where you spend all day in sweat pants and while Sesame Street is playing in the background the thought 'four year degree' runs through your head and you realize you have one of those..it goes by to quickly. You are doing the right thing.
And if that wasn't enough encouragement. This morning's sermon was Psalm 23. If you are at all unfamiliar with it the first line is "The Lord is my Shepherd I SHALL NOT WANT" OUr pastor went on to explain the care and provision that a Shepherd gives His sheep. It wasn't at all 'prosperity gospel', yet very timely. [Click here to listen] and we sang a song that sang my heart. Here are the words:
Jesus, I'm frail, I'm so very weak
My faithfulness fails, my courage will flee
But You are my rock, my shelter and shade
When I'm burdened down, You'll carry the weight

So I will cast my cares on You
Yes, I will cast my cares on You
I will rest within Your arms
Knowing I am safe from harm
I will cast my cares on You

When I'm overwhelmed and I cannot stand
You hear every cry and You lift my head
I'm desperate for grace and mercy anew
I must have Your strength, Oh I must have You