~We must not just please ourselves.2 We should help others do what is right and build them up in the Lord. 3 For even Christ didn’t live to please himself. ..4 Such things were written in the Scriptures long ago to teach us. And the Scriptures give us hope and encouragement as we wait patiently for God’s promises to be fulfilled.~
okay, so as you probably gathered it has been tough around here. Shortly after my post yesterday, my vibrant, lovely, strong willed little 2 year old had a complete meltdown over putting blocks away. Today, our morning was a struggle and at one point i thought 'i want to go back to "work"'. It was seriously easier and more "rewarding". As this fleeting, one second thought scanned my mind i asked myself 'is that what would make you happy?' That would be to please me. I get the fulfillment of 'pouring my life into' 25-30 students. To get smiles, teacher appreciation gifts, a paycheck..I get more money, more public recognition, more adult conversation. For what? For myself? Is this life about me? Do i live to please myself? And in the end will that make me happy, more content, will it give me satisfaction? I knew the answer, ONLY in Christ will i find fulfillment and true satisfaction.
Then i read this passage. Life is not about just pleasing myself, it is about helping other do what is right and building them up in the Lord..can't think of a more literal description of biblical motherhood than that can you?
13 I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.