4"...but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.5For this is how the holy women who hoped in God used to adorn themselves, by submitting to their own husbands, 6as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord. And you are her children, if you do good and do not fear anything that is frightening."
That bolded phrase has been ETCHED into my mind..
I used to not think of "frightening" as what i do now..i thought it meant more..i don't know...scary?..but i am learning that it looks like this:
I am afraid that when Ben's best friend & his wife & 3 kids show up at dinnertime to spend the night as they travel down to family for the holidays that my kids won't sleep..that i won't sleep..that getting them to bed will be a nightmare...
I am afraid that when its time to put Brennan to bed he is going to pitch a fit..about EVERYTHING..
I am afraid that if I don't let Knox cry it out at 6 am he will think that is an acceptable wake up time..
I am afraid to let him cry it out for fear he will wake Brennan & he will be a grouch because of it..
Do you see what i mean?? FEAR doesn't have to be about drowning & such..i can display fear in the everyday tasks of motherhood.
So I have this convo with myself (say for scenario #1..) Do you know Ben loves the _______'s? Yes.
Do you know that it serves him to be around ______? Do you know that he will be encouraged by you serving this family when he knows it inconviences you? Does the bible say to be considerate and hospitable..to open your home and care for others? WHOM are you most concerned about in this situation..yourself?? Hmmm. Okay. Do you trust GOD? That he knows your life & schedule and that unexpected guest 2 days before my whole family comes up for Thanksgiving is GOOD for me? That He uses experiences like this to refine me & reveal selfishness..To teach me that He is worthy of trust and better than whatever it is i think i would be missing...
DO WHAT IS GOOD.
DO NOT FEAR ANYTHING THAT IS FRIGHTENING...