Friday, April 29, 2011

mommy days

"What to have for lunch?', not a question today
for once again we will have cheese its and pb&j

There are chores to be done just to do them again
there are sheets to be washed, but where to begin?

For that one will nap soon and they'll still be wet
and not long after so will this one, i bet

I can tell by the sound of the whines and the cries
'not that kind, no this one', 'please honey just try'...

Says a mommy as tired as the child that she hears
her eye ever watchful as nap time soon nears.

For she wants to crash, but when will she shower?
or mop floors, make calls? And then there's the dryer.

Ever full to the brim of clothes that need folded
and then there's the grocery for this bread is molded..

And what of the milk- is it all gone again?
What was that sound i heard in the den?

The glass -broken pieces all over the floor
bare little feet and milk galore.

Why did i give him that glass that could break-that could shatter
o thats right all the others are dirty and what was that clatter?

The mop? Mommy's got it- no honey just towels. Milk will just sour.
Well i do need a new one-i'll add that to the list in about an hour.

But first, where'd baby # 1 go?
Do i hear the tv?- thats not a PBS show...

Off with the soap opera, off of my bed
where are your underwear?-not on your head.

Get off of there son or soon you will fall
thats not what that band aid was for at all.

Its not just a sticker, don't waste them please child
O for a day that wasn't half this wild!

I know they will come soon enough i hear
they grow up so fast and you'll miss every tear...

They years go so fast and the days so slow
only a mother who's done it will know.

So now for that nap isn't it about time
for i've spent all my energy...spent every dime!




Sunday, April 24, 2011

no wipes

I HAVE to share this story especially since so many have commented on potty stuff...after church to day we decided last minute to go to Ben's moms which i 30 minutes from our church (1 1/2hrs from our house)...We had a blast..on the way home from her house around 6:30, we stopped to get take out pizza and ate it outside on a blanket in a grassy area near the not-eat-in-pizza place. Just after i finished my last bite (if it wasn't before this is certainly was later)Knox said 'potty'. We knew we had a drive so we had put him in a pull up to keep the car seat safe..so i wasn't panicking ...The area we were in a was newly developing and near a pond..no potties anywhere near..no worries, glad he's a boy i thought he could just go in the grass..Well pee indeed but also POOP!
Yes grunting and red faced he squats in the grass..! What do you do? You can't flush ...gross! I told Ben to grab the wipes from the car, forgetting that i had taken them out and left them in the other car 2 days before. NO WIPES! Poor baby i had to use dry Wendy's napkins that were in the glove compartment!
Then...i cleaned him up and got some anti bacterial that i DID still have. We buckled in and headed for the rest of the drive home..not too long after that maybe 10 minutes or so he said "poop"..again still in a pull up so not panicking too much as we started looking for an exit..he kept saying it and was drawing up his legs his eyes were tearing up...I gave Ben the word and he pulled off on the side of the interstate. We get him out pull down his pants and knowing he CAN poop in the grass we figure that is better than a stinky messy pull up right? Soo, our son poops..and then accidentally takes a step backwards into the poop (ever tried to poop standing up-especially at the beginning stages of potty control??!!) Meanwhile Brennan begins to shout " i need to poop too!!" from the backseat..
Ben gets him out and so here we stand on the side of the interstate..no exit for miles with two kids -pants down- pooping on the grass and NO WIPES!!! Poop all over Knox shoe, pee on his shorts from trying not to get the poop on the back (he was positioned in such a way the pee got on the front)... as much as possible we clean them both up, more anti bacterial...buckle back in and then I had to poop or puke or something i was so grossed out...!
The boys began to sing and dance and laugh and were cheesing to the 100th % the rest of the way home. Maybe it was good comical relief for them to watch Ben and i standing there with semi's and SUVs full of families zooming past laughing hysterically at the whole situation...laughing to the point of tears and wetting your pants...
Yes. A day with no wipes just may be good medicine for the heart...! I SOOOOO wanted Ben to whip out his mac camera and get some shots but for the sake of your stomach we didn't..Aren't you glad i spared you those details?

Thursday, April 21, 2011

a day in our life:

I am planning a post where i take pictures of what is happening every hour at our house..like at 6:55 am all the way till 7:55 pm...coming soon..
BUT...til then i will give you a word overview of today:
It started at 5:30 with Knox. (You may have seen the fb post). He called "mommy"...i didn't go in..."daddy" he didn't go in..."anybody"..hahahah. Ben & i where laughing for a while over that..then after about an hour of that he finally quieted down and we got to sleep til 7am when Brennan came and jumped in our bed. We got up and Ben got on the treadmill and i started breakfast. Brennan helped me make pancakes and cook bacon. Knox woke up at 7:55. We ate and i cleaned up b'fast, packed lunches and backpacks for Mothers Day Out.
I chased the boys around to clothe them, and placed some clothes in the dryer. I sat down to fold an awaiting basket from yesterday that i was too tired to fold at bedtime and got the boys playing with toys in the playroom.  
Not too much later Knox said potty and we ran and i heard the dryer timer buzz..2 little feet run to the laundry room, the dryer door open...close...and the sound of the laundry basket scooting across the floor. Brennan had taken an empty basket, pulled out all the warm clothes and brought them to me! WOOO HOOOOO!!!!!!
Meanwhile Knox is asking me to ing the potty song and dance bc he has deposited his goods..so i do and give Brennan a SUPER BIG hug for being such a great helper! We fold(& refold) clothes til grandaddy get here to pick up the boys for "school". Ben's dad picks them up every Thursday (along with their cousins Hunter-4 and Chase-3) and takes them 2 blocks over to Trinity Tots where these amazing, certified, hymn-singing women care for them from 10am-3pm. 
The troops are off and i put on my jogging (walking now) shoes and head down the street for a quick one. Upon arriving home to stretch and grab a quick shower before my haircut appointment i find some dear ladies inviting me to their church..turns out they new Ben and there goes my shower and errands before haircut..
The lady before me at the salon was 30 minutes late so Nancy was running behind, it gave me time to catch up with our dear friend Whitney who had been so faithful to serve our family and watch our boys..
I was there for 2 hours..! 
I got home..showered, and read my bible. I listened to a GREAT song that was new to me by Hllsong "Still" check it out here.
Picked up the boys, returned something at Walmart & went to Captain D's because online it said that kids eat free and Ben had a photo shoot form 3 til 9pm..Well OUR Captain D's is not part of the franchise and boo i already had two little hungry boys out of their carseats, had waited our turn in line and they were drooling over pictures of corn on the cob..so we stayed and paid $11 for a meal i was hoping we would be eating for less than #5, but oh well...
We returned home played outside and entertained our neighbor Phil, until Knox had to potty..which btw let me brag on him..today was his first day to go to MDO in underwear..his teachers said he was dry all day! We went to the grocery on Tuesday with him in undies and i am sos so sososo thankful! We are not accident free, but...
Anyway bedtime came at last and they are asleep praise the LORD!!!!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Humility

6Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 8 Be sober-minded;be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.9 Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. 10And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 11 To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.
1 Peter 5:6-11

When i am experiencing anxiety the root issue is that i am trying to be self sufficient acting independent of God..all the cares coming my way  are actually provided by God specifically for the purpose of cultivating humility in my life ...God wants me to learn to depend on Him to NEED HIM and in the end to give glory to Him with an ever deepening appreciation for the mighty hand of God...
pg. 75/77 Humility

"You are good and DO good...Psalm 119:68

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Encouragement

“Encouaragement is like sunlight to the human spirit: we cannot flower and grow without it.

I am so thankful for God's love for me. Ben and i have been rather discouraged lately.  All of us can go through hard seasons-aware that they are indeed 'seasons' and will not last forever but that doesn't make the hard go away.  I know that it is BECAUSE of His love not LACk of love that God has gives 'hard times'. He loves us too much to let us stay the same-He is 'disarming us of all that we depend on til we depend on him' . It is through suffering that we, just like Christ, learn obedience 
Hbr 5:8Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered
It is for my sanctification that God takes us through all things and it is from His hand that we experience gracious moments of precious joy like:
1. Knox's hugs and snuggles each morning with his 'Hi honey' greeting as he toddles into our room..
2. Brennan's care for me if i get hurt "Here you go Mommy, this will make you feel better"...
3. Ben's convincing words to enjoy myself and take a day to ramble..
4.Hearing Brennan sing 'Jesus Jesus Jesus' to go to sleep..
5.Faithful words from a friend that God is 'after my heart' reminding me of the love pursuit that first drew me to Christ in college..

I was reminded this weekend of what a sweet life God has given me. Made freshly aware of His faithfulness and kind pursuit of my heart. I have looked back on a very charmed life and i am so very thankful for the life God has given me. I am not always thankful, joyful, and aware of God's love. I am posting one picture in particular that i am sure i was not thinking thankful thoughts, but a good God has shown me the 'markers' on His kitchen door of my growth this year and that helps. So here are a few glimpses of life at our house:




His 'person' he made is all by himself-tape and all..
Our little 'cheeser' Knox
Making homemade granola-that got big compliments from Mr. Mayfield...how cool if it makes it into the farmers market?!
laundry...
Knox cleaning up the leftovers..
My friend Ann mailed me my maternity clothes that we had been sharing and knox wanted to put this on..it fit just like a dress!
My pants-less wonder boy..i PROMISE he had pants on when he went outside!
YOu can't see the clock but its before 6:30

Thursday, April 14, 2011

DRESS UP

Lately the boys have been REALLY into dress up..Knox more i am sure because of his brother's interest..but Brennan has been a different character everday!

GRRR...Little lions...

Herioc Firefighter...
....and mischevious necklace wearing little boy...
Cowboys...yes Knox has on Christmas pjs...he uncovers himslef in his sleep..we have to dress him like its winteror else he wakes up with freezing cold little toes..

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Quiver and Birth Control

So beginning now-here are some excerpts from what i read in regards to the 'quiver' post:

In response, it can be pointed out that the Scriptures also say that a wife is a gift from the Lord (
Proverbs 18:22), but that doesn't mean that it is wrong to stay single (1 Corinthians 7:8). Just because something is a gift from the Lord does not mean that it is wrong to be a steward of when or whether you will come into possession of it. It is wrong to reason that since A is good and a gift from the Lord, then we must pursue as much of A as possible. God has made this a world in which tradeoffs have to be made and we cannot do everything to the fullest extent. For kingdom purposes, it might be wise not to get married. And for kingdom purposes, it might be wise to regulate the size of one's family and to regulate when the new additions to the family will likely arrive. As Wayne Grudem has said, "it is okay to place less emphasis on some good activities in order to focus on other good activities."..... .....The "trust God, therefore don't use birth control" thinking is based upon the incorrect assumption that what happens "naturally" reflects "God's best" for our lives, but that what happens through human means does not. Why should we conclude that the way to let God decide the size of our family is to get out of the way and just let nature take its course? We certainly don't think that way in other areas of life. We don't reason, for example, that we should never get haircuts so that "God can decide" the length of our hair. Farmers don't just let the wind plant their crops in the fear that actively regulating what is grown on their land somehow interferes with the provision God wants to give them. And a family doesn't just trust God to provide food for by waiting for it to drop from the sky, but instead goes to the store to buys it. God ultimately determines everything that will happen, both in nature and in human decisions, and He brings His will to pass through means. Human activity does not therefore interfere with his plans, but is instead itself governed by Him as the means to bring to pass His will. Hence, we should not conclude that what happens apart from our planning is "better" and more reflective of God's desires for us than what happens through our planning. God very often causes us to plan as the means towards improving our lives and advancing His kingdom purposes..... .
...Further, God has revealed that it is His will for us to regulate and direct creation for His glory (
Genesis 1:28). God has given us the privilege of being able to make significant life decisions because this exercises wisdom and thus shows the fruit that His word is bearing in our lives. When we rightly use the godly wisdom God has given us, God is glorified. He doesn't want us to simply think we have to take what comes naturally, apart from our efforts, because then our sanctified wisdom is not expressed. In fact, very often it is God's will that we not simply let things move along naturally. Going back to the analogy mentioned above, farmers don't simply collect whatever grain happens to grow in their fields, concluding "this is what God wants to provide." Rather, they go out and plant grain, realizing that God wants to provide not only through nature, but also through the means they employ to steward nature. ...And one might be able to minister more effectively for the kingdom by deciding to have 4 children instead of 15, so that more resources can be given to the cause of missions and more time can be devoted to other areas. If such planning is done for God's glory and in wisdom, and if such planning continues to acknowledge that our plans are not perfect and that birth control does not absolutely ensure anything, it is pleasing to God. for more read the entire article at: http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/articles/does-the-bible-permit-birth-control

BLOGGING.....

I desire to always give God glory than my problems or circumstances. My desire is that whatever God is walking me through may in some way encourage others. On this blog i don't always filter things super carefully. I need to be more careful about my words on here and in person. God's Word says we are to have fellowship, community, and encourage one another...to weep with those who weep and laugh with those who laugh. This blog has been my effort in that direction- to ask for words of wisdom, for words of grace, for others to say 'i have been there too, here is how God has been faithful' and to do the same for others....
I have considered disabling comments on here-not because i don't want to hear from you-for that is exactly what i want, but facial expressions, tones and love can be hard to discern through black and white typed letters. I will most likely stop commenting on others blogs-and calling or getting together instead-especially if i sense the need for encouragement.
I will begin to post more scripture, less words from Joy, more words of wiser people that can instruct us from authors i am reading, more pictures about our boys less of the drama i am experiencing...
If you want to know how i am doing emotionally, spiritually and physically and can't seem to discern it on here-please call or email or send a message.
I am so thankful for the smaller world that the internet can create for this 21st century mom-i see it as blessing in my life...but there is no trade for the real thing..thank you faithful kind friends for the calls and emails that you have sent after reading.

Monday, April 4, 2011

The Rain

The scriptures in the previous post are running over and over through my head.
It has rained a lot here this year. I read the annual weather summary from this past year and it stated that we had a 'colder, snowier winter that lasted well into February' and 1/10 of rainfall would occur in the month of March'..they were correct!
As many researchers have concluded weather effects the mood. I have growled to myself everytime i walked outside for at least four months! BUT do you know what the weather is like MOST days in Athens TN? '60-80 and partly to mostly sunny'...only one third of the year is it wet and cold..the other 2/3 are mostly pleasant! But isn't it like us to complain?!
I wanted to combine the thoughts of the quiver post with thoughts on suffering. I have 3 friends with 7 or more children. I was a nanny (and consequently a mentee) of a lady who has nine. I never cease to be amazed at what these women do to the glory of God. "whatever you do, in word or in deed...whether you eat or drink..do it ALL to the glory of God"...they change diapers and nurse for up to 14 years of their lives!!! DAILY. They are taking up their cross for the sake of Christ. No, they are not in a 3rd world country living in tents, sharing God's story, BUT they are living less than glamorous lives-in smaller budgeted houses, with less than glamorous nails, hair and wardrobe in a world that prizes those very things. Their vacations and eating out are less often than the family of 2...and hand me downs are welcomed by all. BUT none of the moms, dads, or (older) siblings that i have spoken of would change a thing bc of wht God has taught them in the process. There is a lady at our church with 2 boys and a girl who has a severe birth defect, i have a friend with two girls 15 months apart and a little 18 month old with downs-3 children under 3! These women have learned God in ways many will never know Him.

My own story is similar. Though i have not known the depths of toughness as the above mentioned women, i have 'suffered' in my limited opinion with our boys being so close and our budget so tight. BUT GOD HAS BEEN MORE THAN FAITHFUL and my suffering is but a scratch on the surface of what God has in store for me. ALL of us who have undergone any degree of suffering and have allowed God to teach us during that time are greater for it. Our hearts bound closer to His through it, our faith increased, our love deeper, our compassion greater!

Without so MANY days of cold and rain, what would i care (or even notice) of the sunshine? WOuld i walk about relishing and drinking in every moment of each ray, each song of the robin more precious, each rise in the temp reason for praise?

Its the same with the suffering...were it not for those days without the suffering, would not our appreciation grow weaker for the good?
OH but that our appetite for the suffering were the same! If we taste the sweetness of God so deliciously in the suffering why do we not say "Bring on the RAIN"?

Thank you Jen also for your post on your blog that is so great on this topic!

Friday, April 1, 2011

Suffering

But if when you do good and suffer for it you endure, this is a gracious thing in the sight of God21For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps. 1 Peter 2:20-21

And Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him,"You lack one thing: go, sell all that you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me." Mark 10:21

But it shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, 44and whoever would be first among you must be slave of all. 45For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." Mark 10:43-45

But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death Philipians 3:7-10

 So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple. Luke 14:33

The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up. Then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. Matthew 13:44

The goals of american christianity are often a nice marriage, children who don't swear and good church attendance..Taking the words of Christ literally is rarely considered..most of us want a balanced life that we can control that is safe and that does not involve suffering...page 68 Crazy Love

Is my treasure Christ? Am i willing to say i want to KNOW CHRIST through sufferfing? Why not? Is my comfort a greater treasure than my Savior? What does taking the words of Christ seriously look like in my life?
I may just share my answers tomorrow...