Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Us

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

-Hill songs Through it All-

We are still so filled wth thanks at the improvement in Molly. Knox has shown improvement in the bedtime issues as we consistently discipline. Brennan has returned to his more usual self, although three is quite the testing stage..to God be the glory for tidbits of rest we are receiving! Just doing formula instead of nursing is a HUGE break for me. B feeding always drains me in the most powerful way. More than being pregnant. Yes really. I usually feel great during pregnancy..just not while nursing, I literally feel like the babies suck the life out of me. My skin looses luster, I loose all my baby weight and then some, I have dark circles under my eyes..so although I may have to fight the flab extra hard this time, I am feeling more energetic and lively since she has been on the bottle.
Now, for another HUGE answer to prayer, while talking with a friend the other night I was reminded of a very dear little family here in Athens that has three older teenage daughters. They are/ were home schooled and may have time available during the mornings and/ or regular school hours. I called their mom out of sheer desperation to see if she might be willing to lend me one or two of them occasionally for help with the kids and or the home. You will be awed by our Gods kindness as you hear her response:
Joy! This is unbelievable we are doing a Book study with their girls called "preparing to be his helpmeet" ( read more here)
My husband and I have discussed how we feel it would be beneficial to have them kind of ' intern ' with a young wife and mom..
Wow! If that is not God's hand at work? You can read about them here
We start on Thursday I am so thrilled! Thank you GOD!!!!!!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Finch family news

Hebrews 10:35
Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. 36For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
FOR YOU HAVE NEED OF ENDURANCE
That is why God is taking us through this little family trial right now. And HE is making us stronger! We are learning so much through this season.
We are rejoicing today leaps and bounds. Molly Is a different child! She has gained two pounds, has slept from 9pm -4 or 5am the last three nights! She is eating well not crying or fussing during feeds, she is fussy only if ungry or tired. She has found her thumb and self soothes it is AMAZING! Sosososo many people have been praying for her and we are so grateful!
We are trying to decide whether or not to ome forward with bloodwork and further testing. Her reflux is still a dr concern. She still spits up but not as much. We don't know if we should put her through all of that if reflux supposedly gets better at 6 months we are considering waiting until then to make further plans for tests etc.
The boys are glad to have things closer to normal and enjoyed daddy time this last week as he took them to his memaws and left me and Molly to rest and recover. What a precious husband huh? He has been an amazinkg husband and dad through all of this thank you Jesus for the gift of a wise caring man!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Uh oh

Okay I cannot get my blogpress app to work correctly apparently so when I posted my lLast update it published in my kitchen blog. So go to here to see some recent pics of us all..Click here. I will see if I can figure out what went wrong in the meantime...

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Children's hospital visit

Yesterday Molly and I went to Knoxvilles children's hospital for our first visit to the g.i. Doctor. Since my last post, I have been doing the formula nutramigen all but at once a day. Only bc Molly would cry uncontrollably and try to latch onto any skin she could, my chin, neck, hand, or even bens. It was obvious she wanted to nurse. I was nursing her once a day strictly for comfort. I wasn't even sure if she was getting much. But the cdoctor yesterday said the only way to see if she is struggling from a milk protein intolerance is to stop completely. She said that all mammals whether cows, goats or humans all make a protein in our mllk. That protein is what Molly is most likely unable to digest. She said if this formula doesn't work to move to one called Neocate which costs about $70 a can. We are going thru 2 cans as week right now. So whoa! The nutramigen is soy based.
Also she believes that she needs further testing on reflux. Molly is only in the 8th-10th percentile and weighs 11.1 lbs. I didn't think much about this until as I was leaving I met a lady who had her son who was born at 24 weeks and weighed 2.13 lbs at birth and he was now 3 1/2 months like Molly and they weighed the same thing. She thought her son was way behind because he was a premie and I just then realized that maybe Molly isnt keeping enough food down. If the reflux is simply a laundry inconvenience then I could care less, but it's more. She still spits up about 2 oz after a feeding and fusses after each feeding. The doctor wants us to run blood work and do x-rays. She said she didn't want to run a scope on a baby this young but if the X-rays show malformation or disfunctin she will. We go back to children's tomorrow (sunday) to do bloodwork and take a stool sample. We go on November 30 to have the xrays and we go December something ( i will haveto doube,check) for the results of the labwork.
We had care group at our house last night and they prayed for Molly's healing. We know that if God chooses to heal her we will giveHim all the glory,but if not He is still a good God working out good things in our hearts and teaching us much aboutHis Father heart.
Our boys are struggling with all the crying. Brennan is dealing with it by becoming very aggressive. He has never bitten anyone But left a hard black circle on Knox arm this week. When I asked him why he but he said he was angry..he has been hitting, taking toys from Knox and being defiant towards ben andme. The sound of a crying baby is hard enough on adults who know what to try to do to help a baby, but for a toddler who got mad at the doctor for hurting his brother and sister because he gave them shots and made them cry, it's difficult to understand. We think he is mad that we don't help her and plus just the sound of babies crying is a frustrating sound. It is their scream for help. Brennan is angry that we "won't" help her. He tells me all the time mom Molly is crying- can you help her? Or asked why I can't help her. It is effecting knox's sleep. He hears her up crying after her middle of the night feedings and doesn't understand why he can't be up too. I had just fallen back asleep around midnight the other night and we heard Knox get up. Ben got up and found im in front of the fridge with the fridge wide open with a carton of milk trying to open it. He had to be put back to bed three times that night and to without a spanking.at four in the morning. Both of the boys were doing so great with potty stuff. Brennan had gone three months without wetting his pull up at night. It was wet twice this week. Knox has had to go back to pull ups complelty after wearing underwear for a month before molly was born.
Ben can't get away from the crying even with his soundproof headphones and the office door locked. He is looking into an office space downtown again. We are looking for household help.
There are numerous times when I have to set Molly down as far away from the boys as I can and go discipline them over jotting, taking toys away etc. I have to raise my voice for them to even hear me over her cries. They have been yelling at me and each other now as a new thing.
I could go on and on telling ou the drama at our house but I want to leave you knowing that ben and I have faith that Gods Grace is sufficient and that he will do abundantly more than we could ask or imagine.
Psalm 71:5
For you, O Lord, are my hope, my trust, O LORD, from my youth.
Hebrews 10: 35-36 therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Update on Molly

I will try to give you run down what h gone on with Molly. Since she was about 2 weeks old ( I'm not sure what triggered it) but Molly began screaming while she was eating and afterwards for about a 10 minutes up to 30 or more. She pulled off and on a lot and squirmed and twisted while nursing,she burped and spit up large amounts after every feeding. I told my pediatrician at each check up and he had me first go no daIry then no soy. He said to stay away from gassy foods like broccoli sweet potatoes spinach etc. I did. He mentioned no gluten, I did it. I was eating a pear for bfast, a banana for lunch, steamed rice and chicken for dinner. I was drinking coconut, or almond milk (which I enjoy both) and watching every morsel that went in my mouth. She was still Behaving the same way during nursings. My pediatrician and countless others recommended that I move to formula. I did and gradually have stopped bfeeding completely today being the first day since she was born that I haven't. I kept nursing even just a little because I didn't want to get mastitis since I am very proned to that. She still fusses after feedings, she still spits up large amounts ( like 1-3 oz) she doesn't scream or squirm while taking the bottle she does pull off and on the bottle a lot, she will only take a #2 top on an agent bottle without either drowning ( on #3 or up or fast flow on dr brown or playtex nursers) or taking 30 minutes or more to take the bottle (with #1 or slow flow tops). There have been days where she cried for an hour up to four hours non stop unable to be consoled with the five s fix (swaddle,suck,stomach/side,sshhh,sway) she slept great when she first came home for 5-6 hour streches. And then whatever the switch was that got turned on about feeding fussy got turned off about sleeping well. At first I just thought it was because we traveled. We were in Alabama for a family wedding on bens side and he did the photography. We visited his grandmother and she met mollyfor the first time. We knew it was the right thing to do because she has not been well lately. But it was a rough go for Molly. Me and the boys went to my moms from there and I tried to just see it as a messed up schedule and different locations.
She was 4 weeks old.
She is now 13 weeks old. we try to keep the schedule, sleeping and feeding, we stay at home most every day. It isn't that. The dr called in Zantac. We didn't see a change. After being in Alabama last week and my parents observing her and concluding something was definitely amiss we revisited pediatrician on Monday. He recommended that I go on formula completely even though he agrees "breast is always best". He recommended me to a gastreologist and we have an appt on Friday the 18th. He called in Prilosec and after one dose she vomited and had diarea. We haven't continued that medication.
She sleeps for about four maybe five hours at night. She naps for about an hour at a time during the day. She has been very gassy and congested since we started the formula. She has had green snot the past two mornings. But dr said no relation, that her ears are clear.
The boys are so tired of her crying (and me toooooo!!!!!!!!)
We pray for her daily and every time I was in th nursing room at our church since her birth some sympathetic mom has prayed for her healing. She is a very happy baby when she isn't n pain. I wish I knew what to do to help her. I have tried everything I know. We are praying for answers this Friday. They may have to do a scope which means she may have to be put to sleep. Those are not fun thoughts for a mom, but we just want her to get help.
We have read through the symptoms of colic and really don't feel like that is what it is. She doesn't cry only at certain times of the day. She doesn't seem to be soothed by the things that sooth colicky babies...so...we just want to know what it is bemuse she is in obvious pain.It seems to have worsened in the last few weeks. Please pray for us but know that although we are physically and mentally exhausted we are spiritually encouraged and being strengthened.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Spurgeon sermon

I wanted to share this link to a Charles Spurgeon sermon that has really ministered to me. It is based on psalm 84:11-12
For the Lord God is a sun and shield: the Lord will give Grace and Glory: no good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
O Lord of Hosts, blessed is the man that trusts in You!”

http://spurgeongems.org/vols28-30/chs1659.pdf

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

You know that feeling you get when you are swimming and you have pushed it as hard as you can, as long as you can and you must, you MUST come up for air?
Many of you are waiting for an update, you have seen the failed attempts of my last two posts and you are beginning to wonder about me (or so ivebeen told:)
Well that is where I am that swimming-need-to-come-up-for-air point. I spent some time at my parents last weekend because my dads family was having a get together and my parents Came and got me and the kiddos. My mom dad and sis felt like something more was going on with Molly and so I have spent a week trying to help her. And care for two full of energy little boys and keep clean clothes and dishes. And that's all. For those of you familiar with my cleaning schedule you know what that means. I have done NOTHING except survive each moment each day. I know I thought I was there before but I got there in a new way lately. I don't want you to hear this as complaining for God tells us to do everything without complaining. And truly I am thankful I n my heart for what I am learning and experiencing.
We used to play a game called highs and lows. You had to give a one word summary of a your day and if I could give a one word summary of this season it would be weary.isnt it good to know that GOD NEVER grows tired or weary? 28 Do you not know?
   Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
   the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
   and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
   and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
   and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
   will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
   they will run and not grow weary,
   they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40

The lyrics to these three songs have ministered to m y heart in ways I cannot explain:
Hillsong's I will run to you

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

And Scott underwood you are in control:

You are my shepherd, I have no needs.

You lead me by peaceful streams,
     
And You refresh my life.


You hold my hand, and You guide my steps,

I could walk through the valley of death,
   
And I won't be afraid.


Because You are in control. You are in control.
 
You cause everything to work together

You truly have a sovereign plan.
          
And You know  who  I am, and You made who    I am,
         
And You love who   I am.


And Charlie Hall's on the road to beautiful

I crumble at Your kiss and grace
I'm a weakling in the dust
Teach me how to cling to You
With all my life and all my love

Father come to me, hold me up 'cause I can barely stand
My strength is gone and my breath is short, I can't reach out my hands
But my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain

You're my portion in this life
You're my strength now in my fight
And to You I pledge my heart
In the pain and in the dark I'll love You
I'll love You, I'll love You

I'll love You...

And my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

I love You

I pray this blesses you for I am truly learning of Gods strength in my weakness right now.