This is a letter to yourself to remind you of some things that you have learned this year.
"...you shall remember the whole way that the LOrd has led you..that He might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart..letting you hunger and then feeding you...take care lest you forget the LOrd your God..beware lest you say in your heart my power and might got me here..you shall remember the LOrd your God for it is HE who gives power.." Deuteronomy 8
You will make the same mistakes as you have before, your struggles will not change, but let what you have learned of God stay fresh in your memory. Recite it to yourself as these challenging days ahead creep up and be encouraged at growth and God's faithfulness.
When Brennan was born you had it all figured out. You were the perfect parent, with the perfect child, that slept through the night and on a schedule because you worked diligently to teach him how...and then he turned 15 months and you realized you are not a perfect parent, he was a sinful child just like every other child that had proceeded from a woman and not only that you had another baby to care for. WHat did you learn of God during that season? That His Word is the guide for parenting, not my thoughts, theories or studies, that Christ is the standard of perfection and we all fall short, that try as you may you will fail on your own. You learned to hunger...that you might be fed. YOu longed for control, but God continually lovingly took it away, that you might be fed by his sufficent power stronger than yours. You hungered for sleep, but God taught your SOUL to rest. You hungered for encouragement from friends and other parents, for someone to understand-God fed you with his fathomless understanding (Isaiah 40:28) "he does not faint or grow weary his understanding is unserachable. He gives power to the faint and to him who has no might he increases strength"
Knox was a fighter, of sleep of schedules of your will. You fought back at first until you realized 2 Chronicles 20:15 "Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.." You learned that "You are good and do good" Psalm 119:68 and that "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows James 1:16-18
"For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to anyone." Lamentations 3:32-34
You learned an advanced version of Romans 8:28 by looking at verse 18: .."consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.."
and the rest of the chapter made more sense
"...For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. 26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
You have so far to go. You are still very selfish. You still want the world to work around what serves you best but take heart
"...being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
"...If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Romans 8
Just ask HIm Joy, daily for he will give you ALL things you need. If you have it not, its because you need it not, or have failed to ask. He will supply your needs and IF you are humble before Him He will show you what your needs are so that you may look to Him to supply them so that you may learn of His power and rest in HIS strength.
Remember "...We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. 9 Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God!"
He loves you JOY, he just wants you to know all of HIm and to do that you must be willing to trust all of you to Him..
Psalm 31:14 But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.” 15 My times are in your hands; 19 How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you.."
Ephesians 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory!"
Your July 22, 2011 self