Wednesday, November 9, 2011

You know that feeling you get when you are swimming and you have pushed it as hard as you can, as long as you can and you must, you MUST come up for air?
Many of you are waiting for an update, you have seen the failed attempts of my last two posts and you are beginning to wonder about me (or so ivebeen told:)
Well that is where I am that swimming-need-to-come-up-for-air point. I spent some time at my parents last weekend because my dads family was having a get together and my parents Came and got me and the kiddos. My mom dad and sis felt like something more was going on with Molly and so I have spent a week trying to help her. And care for two full of energy little boys and keep clean clothes and dishes. And that's all. For those of you familiar with my cleaning schedule you know what that means. I have done NOTHING except survive each moment each day. I know I thought I was there before but I got there in a new way lately. I don't want you to hear this as complaining for God tells us to do everything without complaining. And truly I am thankful I n my heart for what I am learning and experiencing.
We used to play a game called highs and lows. You had to give a one word summary of a your day and if I could give a one word summary of this season it would be weary.isnt it good to know that GOD NEVER grows tired or weary? 28 Do you not know?
   Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
   the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
   and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
   and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
   and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
   will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
   they will run and not grow weary,
   they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40

The lyrics to these three songs have ministered to m y heart in ways I cannot explain:
Hillsong's I will run to you

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

And Scott underwood you are in control:

You are my shepherd, I have no needs.

You lead me by peaceful streams,
And You refresh my life.

You hold my hand, and You guide my steps,

I could walk through the valley of death,
And I won't be afraid.

Because You are in control. You are in control.
You cause everything to work together

You truly have a sovereign plan.
And You know  who  I am, and You made who    I am,
And You love who   I am.

And Charlie Hall's on the road to beautiful

I crumble at Your kiss and grace
I'm a weakling in the dust
Teach me how to cling to You
With all my life and all my love

Father come to me, hold me up 'cause I can barely stand
My strength is gone and my breath is short, I can't reach out my hands
But my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain

You're my portion in this life
You're my strength now in my fight
And to You I pledge my heart
In the pain and in the dark I'll love You
I'll love You, I'll love You

I'll love You...

And my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

I love You

I pray this blesses you for I am truly learning of Gods strength in my weakness right now.